but what do I want?
It's very interesting to see movies or come across people who are very sure about their life goals, like they want to climb Mount Everest or they want to become the first-ranked person in the classroom. I've always had difficulty with this. As a child, it was very easy for me to be free and think that all these girls are silly, and then that life is actually more than having strict goals.
Having gone through a few phases of my life, I found that my regret at every stage has been because of not having achieved certain things. In school, it was about not being clear in certain exams. Even in college, I was chasing after having a lot of friends and being popular, but ultimately, at the end of the day, what mattered is what was on my transcripts.
There are sometimes things that are important to us, which I at least get to realise only after that phase of life is over. I have told myself that knowing what I want is the key to most problems, but on a daily basis, I struggle to know even what I want to eat. Sometimes it's one of the hardest things to be sure of what I want.I think the biggest priority in life needs to be to be very certain about what we want. For example, now I am sure that:
- feeding myself on time is something that I want
- being fit is something that I want
- completing my Ph.D. obligations I don't want to look back at my 40s and think that I could have done the Ph.D. better, I could have become more fit, or I could have studied a little bit harder. I think with these three important aspects, I would say that these are what I want.