i just want something
there is this nagging feeling everyday, since the last 2 years, and perhaps since many decades.
this nagging feeling is one of connection, wanting that 'so, whatchu upto' feeling, to check up on someone or have someone check up on me. usually intense work numbs this feeling. instagram, youtube and other media, flood this emotion.
but when things lull again, this feeling is back. speaking to family members is fine, like parents or siblings, but they dont truly understand you.
past relationships I found that even girlfriends might not understand you, good friends might, I'm not sure.
companionship might be a loaded word, but definitely, there is a component of the soul that needs someone close.